Day 68: I trust you, Lord. Calling out for help! Psalm 13
I'm not going to lie, Lord. My trust feels like it's wavering. Things look like they are at their worst and I feel far from you. The thing is, I know you are never far from me and the path you have for me is lit, but Lord, I feel like I'm walking on floating stones and the first misstep will send me spiraling down.
You've shown me some things so I know that things will be ok, but Lord, my mind is asking time and time again: "Will things really be ok?" I know I shouldn't require more, but I want to know more. It will make me feel stable.
And that's my problem. My feelings, Lord, are all over the place. My mind is all over the place. Just when I've defeated the thoughts of overwhelming defeat, they creep right back up. I feel like David crying out, "How long, Lord. How long?"
It's times like this when I long to feel your physical touch. To feel a brush of Your Spirit to ease my nerves. That always helps. Just a light touch. A simple graze. A sprinkle of water.
I know I’m whining and acting bratty, but I want my Daddy! Where are you, Lord!
Why standest thou afar off, O Lord? why hidest thou thyself in times of trouble? Psalms 10:1 KJV
But Lord, I trust you. Right now things don't look so good, but, at times, every minute I have to remind myself that I trust you. I'm in near tears and I say to myself, "I trust My God." You've never failed me and you won't fail me now. Lord, help me when my trust wavers. Holy Spirit comfort me when things look dim. Remind me how You have stuck with me no matter what. You've been good to me even when I wasn't good to You.
But I have trusted in thy mercy; my heart shall rejoice in thy salvation. I will sing unto the Lord, because he hath dealt bountifully with me. Psalms13:5-6 KJV
And now I am reminded. I will read this as a reminder when needed until my trust is unwavering. Lord, don't hold it against me. Please forgive me. Let's start over, renew our bond. I trust you, Lord. I don't know what's going on, but I know You have me.
Renewing my trust,
Keiyia JOYet George
Trust Walk: Walking in His Steps coming soon!